52. been really getting into photosynthesis
and by that, i mean just sitting out in the sun for a few minutes first thing in the morning if i'm too lazy to do my daily walk.
the benefits have been sung to death at this point. but to me, it isn't about circadian rhythms or better sleep... although i HAVE been trying to get more consistent and earlier sleep times. something about psychology. and good hormones. and vitamin d too, which i don't really pay THAT much attention to. i am still quite young and cute!! (<- lies)
what i enjoy most about the sun in the morning is its warmth. and the peace. how quiet it is in the morning.
i used to really like staying up at night, because i thought similarly: it was quiet. no one would be up to bother me, nor will the house be pretty hectic with all the family going on... but things also felt too lonely, for reasons that i don't think are related to what i just said about my family (because they can get really chaotic and that's not what my brain is looking for).
the warmth in the morning helps with the loneliness, i think. not that it changes the situation i'm in, but it feels pretty nice!!
i don't know where i'm going with this. but the sun is good. the sun is a friend. i haven't been feeling the best lately, but part of me is starting to look forward to the coziness and quiet of the morning. sometimes being here for those little joys is important.
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ps: super sorry about email delays again u_u like i said, the mental health's not doing too healthy as of late. still recharging. photosynthesizing...